Hey there my cosmic buddies,
The weirdest thing happened to me the other day.
I had this dream that I was leading a meditation in a room full of hundreds of people. The room was really peaceful. The sound of the placid ocean outside was drifting in through the windows. The room was warm and the smell of the incense burning helped make the vibe in the room calm and serene. Then all of a sudden I became really tongue tied. The words just wouldn’t come out properly and everything that I did speak was just total gibberish. Hundreds of faces stared back at me in astonishment. It was really quite stressful.
Thankfully I realised it was a dream and I calmed down and opened my eyes.
To my absolute horror the waking reality was that I was indeed leading a meditation in front of hundreds of people and I had fallen asleep, snoring terribly. The hundreds of astonished faces staring back at me were looking for some kind of explanation.
Do you know what I did? I told them the truth.
I said, “Yes I did, I fell asleep. I cannot deny this nor should I deny this. Is this what you expect from your swamis, gurus and masters? Probably not. But this swami is a human being first and foremost before anything else and this swami was up all night long nursing his asthmatic tortoise and that is not a euphemism for anything else – I actually have a poorly reptile. This swami doesn’t pretend to be something he isn’t nor does he teach you to try to be something you are not. This swami is very tired today and so this guru fell asleep during the meditation. If you find this appalling then perhaps I am not the guru for you anyway because I cannot be anything but what I am. I am imperfect, I am flawed. I have quirks. If you are seeking an enlightened being who has attained perfection in every aspect of his being then when you meet him please send him to me because I would like to meet him too, although I have never met anyone yet who purported to be as such and turned out to truly be that. If you see me as enlightened or a master then that is possibly because you see someone who knows he is flawed and imperfect but who feels that in itself is just perfect, whereas nearly everybody else is destroying themselves over their strife to achieve an elusive sense of perfection.”
I expected to be thrown out of the building and arrested by the New Age Fraud Squad but to my surprise the room resounded with rapturous applause. People afterwards told me that they felt it was one of the most insightful meditations they had ever experienced.
I learnt a lot from it too. It taught me to be even more real and true even more of the time. It is too easy to get caught up in being the guru or the master because people want to project that on to you so they don’t have to take the responsibility for seeing the guru in themselves but at the end of the day what we do here at the Ashram is help people see and be the best in themselves. As His Holiness Sri Twangybanjo says all time – “how do you spell GURU? G. U.R.U. – aha!”
Peace. Om. Chaka Khan